Dealing With Grief
Today my roommate lost his dog Cherie. I am feeling many different emotions. Sadness, guilt, apathy, powerlessness. I have been going over how things could have been done differently. As an empath, I have been internalizing everyone's emotionally, Cherie's when I was petting her sweet little head as my roommate was making the difficult decision to take her to the vet where he knew there was a good chance they were going to put her down. The look on his face when he returned without her sent me into a fresh round of tears. I'm on my way to work at a little day spa in San Francisco's North Beach District, contemplating mortality, and the fragility of our existence -- trying to reconcile my emotional state and pull it together before I work on my first client of the day. I breathe in and out a long sigh and try just be present where I am -- try to reflect on the mercurial nature of the universe and its limitless potential. Try to see part if its grand pattern. Try to remember that everything happens for a reason.
"Everything Happens For A Reason" Performed By Zhane
