Dreaming Again...

Dreaming Again...

I don't know what it is, but today's  practice has set me dreaming again, planning for the future, hoping again and feeling... lighter and happier. Like Radiohead said "fitter, happier, more productive," but without the tongue-in-cheek connotations. I'm liking the way I feel today. Today's day 15 of my second month in and I'm halfway through a milestone goal! Ironically, just a few weeks after the New Moon in Sagittarius, today is the occasion of a literal half moon 🌙 in the sky -- all silvery and shimmering with the promise of new beginnings!  I want to start planning for my vacations and putting things in motion for the year to come! I know that I can do everything that I set my mind to. I can start to live more freely and openly. I can truly be me! I'm stepping into my own skin and feeling more comfortable in it with each passing day. I'm releasing the shame, guilt, grief, pain, resentments, regrets, and recriminations from the past. A new light is dawning on the horizon. I can dream again! Read again! Live life with passion again! Allow again! Hope again! Be again! I am me again.



Today's tarot card from the "Energy Oracle Cards" deck by Sandra Anne Taylor is  Caring Connections drawn in reverse. Again this is about coming to terms with loss. I guess my body mind and soul is still grieving and that is O.K. with me. I feel positive about the changes that are coming my way. I'm coming to terms with all kinds of separations and letting in new, fresh energy. I express gratitude for all the wonderful people, places and things in my life and I know that great things, bigger, better, awesome things are, to quote Disney's "Pocahontas", "just around the river bend"!

Just Around The River Bend

Lyrics

What I love most about rivers is
You can't step in the same river twice
The water's always changing, always flowing
But people, I guess, can't live like that…

What I love most about rivers is
You can't step in the same river twice
The water's always changing, always flowing

But people, I guess, can't live like that
We all must pay a price
To be safe, we lose our chance of ever knowing

What's around the river bend
Waiting just around the river bend

I look once more just around the river bend
Beyond the shore where the gulls fly free
Don't know what for what I dream the day might send
Just around the river bend for me, coming for me

I feel it there beyond those trees
Or right behind these waterfalls
Can I ignore that sound of distant drumming?

For a handsome sturdy husband who builds handsome sturdy walls
And never dreams that something might be coming?

Just around the river bend
Just around the river bend

I look once more just around the river bend
Beyond the shore somewhere past the sea
Don't know what for why do all my dreams extend
Just around the river bend, just around the river bend

Should I choose the smoothest course
Steady as the beating drum? Should I marry Kocoum?
Is all my dreaming at an end?
Or do you still wait for me, dream giver
Just around the river bend?

Songwriters: Alan Menken / Stephen Laurence Schwartz

Just Around the Riverbend lyrics © Walt Disney Music Company



Day 14: Resting On My Laurels...

Day 14: Resting On My Laurels...

Yes I did it! I finally surrendered to a day of complete nothingness... My tasks of the day were getting in touch with my emotions and my inner self, feeling like a motherf**ker, letting any uncomfortable thoughts wash over me, and just being. It was so nice to stretch out in this somewhat challenging practice with an attitude of mindfulness and allowing. I allowed all my worries, my fears, my confusion and imperfections to just be what they are today. I chose to live in a spirit of gratitude,  decide that those "flaws" are my greatest teachers and relax into the moment. My post yoga reflective activities consisted of being treated to Japanese food, (beef udon noodle soup and lion rolls sushi) and watching a K-drama about unrequited love in Paris. Next up on the to-do list -- at home beauty treatments and a bubble bath. Maybe followed by some soft music, and a little bedtime yoga? Why? Because I've gone through the fire and I deserve this time to recharge my batteries before I conquer 2018! So do you. Try it. Take off down the beaten path and plan your own day of R&R. It'll bring you insights and clarity and help you to recover from all the trials and tribulations of this this past year. Finish 2017 on a quieter calmer note. Re-access, relate, refresh, rejuvenate, and most of all... rest.

I drew a tarot card to represent the day from the "Energy Oracle Cards" deck by Sandra Anne Taylor. I got this deck for myself earlier this year when I felt a strong soul calling to do so -- an intuitive urge that has more than paid off for me. This deck resonates with me on a powerful level. Today's card is all about the aspects of community being reversed. It's really appropriate for the mood of today, which is one of isolation and withdrawal. Older partnerships and energies that no longer serve me are moving away to make room for fresh new dreams. On a sadder note, some loving members of my friendship community are non longer with us on this corporeal plane of existence and have taken their leave to the spirit realm. And that is something that I am really grieving over lately. The challenge is for me to find constructive ways to deal with that grief, and I think that I am. Yoga and meditation has been an immeasurable help, as well as the support of caring and loving friends and connections. They are reminding me of all the ways that I am still divinely blessed in my life. Namaste.

30 Days Of Yoga Day 13

30 Days Of Yoga Day 13

Christmas morning! So why do I feel sort of blah? Maybe I am feeling withdrawal symptoms from the rigors of the endless rat race. I'm not really sure what to do with myself when I have so much leisure time on my hands. I could spend more time meditating and getting the rest and rejuvenation that my body is craving. Also, I can take time to focus on my goals for the future and what that means for me. Right now with Saturn in Capricorn, I am being made to look at the foundations of my emotions -- the very fibers that make them up. I'm being taught to not be afraid of them, to express them, to own them, but to do so with thoughtfulness, mindfulness, compassion and love. Maybe more then ever, I need to cue up the temple sounds root chakra meditation video, select a few stones that resonate with my root chakra and spend about 10 minutes in mindful silence. Namaste.

Tis The Season...

Tis The Season...

Yuletide is upon us. My feelings are complex and a bit fuzzy at the moment. I'm just letting them be what there are and letting the day be what it is. It's time for me to relax and not think too hard at the end of a long road of craziness for me. What I'm realizing is that I don't have to have it all figured out right now. I am allowed not to have a beginning-to-end mapped out plan. I'm can just eat a tasty dinner and come home and binge watch "Stranger Things 2" or a K-Drama. I can let the evening unravel as it sees fit and there is nothing that I have to do or force to materialize or make. I can let things just evolve. That is the less I'm learning from this practice. How not to force tree pose. How to stand in the moment and just breathe.

Day 11 of My Second Month of Yoga

Day 11 of My Second Month of Yoga

Today was in many ways, somewhat of a breather. I got a chance to reconnect to the energies of my Reiki practice as well, and I am reminding myself  what it's like to give myself Reiki on a daily basis before bed. I love Divine White Light's Reiki YouTube channel. The energy that comes from her hands is amazing, beautiful and so healing. Today's yoga practice was all about that Shakti Divine Feminine energy -- the energy that I've been developing more of in my life by allowing myself to be in touch with the yin-driven vulnerable sides of myself. Allowing your heart to really feel is one of the most important steps towards healing. In today's society, much of our time is spent armoring ourselves to present a picture of "normalcy" and competence -- a sense that we are "O.K." Yoga is about honoring yourself and your emotions in the real and honest place that they are in each moment. I was able to do that with yoga and Reiki today and by relying on the strength of my spirit guides and divine angelic beings. The book of the moment for me is "The Essence of Reiki: The Definitive Guide to Usui Reiki" by Andy Chrysostomou and Dawn Mellowship.

A Third of The Way There...

A Third of The Way There...

I was able to recharge my batteries for another stab at the last day of this week and the last day of Mercury Retrograde in Sagittarius. I'm taking stock of my life, sifting through my resources to find what works and what doesn't. I'm feeling more accepting and allowing of life's changes and a lot less rigid in my Capricorn moon aspect. Hopefully we are all moving into easier times ahead. Goddess/God knows I need the break. I'm making it through this yoga challenge and that feels good. Everything I'm reading leads me to believe that 2018 is going to be a month of building and establishing foundations. I can sense that type of a future on the horizon for me. And I believe that will be a good thing. In my tarot deck, I keep pulling the Magician deck. It's telling me that I am have to power to be the creator of my own destiny. We all do! It's just for the first time, I'm really owning that fact and putting it into action. It's time for me to wave that wand, imagine a brighter, newer and better future beyond the storms clouds that hover today, and soar up high, scuttling over them towards the sunshine, rainbows and unicorns!

How Did The Universe Know?

How Did The Universe Know?

That I was going to need a yoga practice that would test my endurance just as much as the day did. Yuletidings! Today is Winter Solstice -- officially the shortest day and the longest night if the year. Saturn has arrived in Capricorn, my stoic moon sign and the sun is in Capricorn. "Yowsza!" To quote Inspector Gadget. Yes. I am unapologetically a child of the 80's, and I'm feeling like that meaningless exclamation that means everything.

I have had three finals in the span of 24 hours, and It's only a a few minutes before 8:45pm. How is that even possible? Saturn is in my moon 🌙 sign. That's how. I haven't even gotten to the part where I am attending the funeral of a close friend of mine tomorrow afternoon. I found out about his passing the day after my birthday. Surprise! Right. And there's more but that will have to wait until after Mercury Retrograde, so I can get my communication channels clear enough to express myself properly. That was today. Both my time on the mat and my day kicked my butt. I'm feeling like I need a long hug and some yummy comfort food to eat. Luckily Sagittarius is in Venus, and the beautiful energy radiating through my sign that is her domain, providing that for me. The Universe is having mercy on my soul and  I'm feeling the gratitude at the prospect of this well-deserved respite.