Tired But Inspired!

Tired But Inspired!

I needed a dose of caffeine after my morning yoga and then I had to head off to my classes. I have a performance tomorrow, and maybe it's the stress I have faced over the last two week, or the toll that being sick took on my whole system and frazzled nerves, but I find my self nervous. There are points durning the day when I wonder if I can do it. Logically I know I can, and that all I have to do is just get out there and have fun, but still the nagging little spears of self-doubt remain amid all the happy parts. Maybe the key is just to accept the whole picture with both the good and bad feelings and just let everything go. I think I'm going to practice doing that tomorrow. This is me letting on and letting God/Goddess take the wheel. And cue second yoga practice....

Moving With Confidence

Moving With Confidence

Today I felt so much better about myself, in large part due to my exploration of what makes up the pleasurable and painful situations we experience in life, and finding ways to come to terms with the how the tragedies of my life intersect with its most joyful experiences. As Jay told me yesterday when I was getting in touch with that pain, "Life isn't fair.". That statement rung true for me. A lot about my life's journey up until now has been wrought with sorrow and disappointment. That's not to say that I didn't have many breathtaking and amazing experiences to take snapshots of, it's just that I honor and accept that moments of intense sadness have most definitely also been a part of that tapestry. Where does that leave me? Well, honestly, I'm still figuring that part out. Right now I'm deeply aware of both states of being in my mind's eye, and that's OK -- healing even. I sense that my coming to terms with these dualities, is going to be the focus of the summer, and maybe the rest of the year. It's better to face the shadows than to run from them - even if you're fleeing into the beauty of the light.

It's Late!

It's Late!

OMG! 😲 look at the time. Yes it's late, but the day didn't feel complete without jotting a few words down in my blog. Yes I'm managing my anxiety and yes yoga and meditation are helping. Aromatherapy is helping me tackle the fret and worry beast as well. Then there's the mindful journaling. I'm going to master the fine art of being.

Keep On Going!

Keep On Going!

Just keep towing the line! That seems to be great advice as this semester comes to a close and summer gets closer  and closer. That's just what I'm going to do. Even when the going gets tough, I'm not going to give up. I chose today's practice because I needed to keep my eye on the ball and go for the gold. I have end of semester projects to complete and a two concerts to sing in for the month of May - one on the the 8th of this month and another on the 30th. I love doing what I do and now it's time to start making it work for me. I plan to serve up videos both on a "That Healing Girl" Youtube Channel and on my Adina Pernell Youtube channel to marking my singing and musical pursuits. I also plan to write a book on crystal healing. I've got a lot of work to do this summer (most of all in fun). It's time to fire up my goals and get moving!

Where Do I Go From Here?

Where Do I Go From Here?

To loosely quote Joss Whedon, that is the question of the day. I'm feeling hopeful, inspired, joyful even. No I don't know what the future may hold, but that's sort of the point -- taking a leap on faith. I don't have to be 100 percent sure of the outcome to go with my gut and choose a path of adventure and wild abandon. It's a place to start forging the life of my dreams. It's time to start dreaming again!

Picking Up The Pace

Picking Up The Pace

I'm back in the flow of life again and I'm feeling like the shadows of illness and fatigue are moving away and the last vestiges of sickness are leaving my body. And it feels really good! I'm stretching my muscles a bit more in yoga and I think I'm ready to start longer practices again - maybe 20 minutes or so to begin with and then incorporate some 30 and 45 minute practices in there again. My first forays into the swimming pool again in swim class convinced me that I want to keep swimming a part of my regular routine throughout the summer. So when school is not in session, I need to find a community pool to keep my busy. It's great exercise and it's so calming to be in the water and at one with such a formless element. I'm still taking it easy though, but that's more than OK. I'm excited for the promise of summer!

Getting Through It All

Getting Through It All

Today I got so much done! I've nearly wrapped up the photo 📷 story that I'm working on, I worked on the songs for the upcoming Spring Jazz Concert at City College of San Francisco and I'm finalizing things for the performance that the jazz club at the college is going to hold at Bird And Beckett. The word that sums up all the positive endeavors I'm pursuing is simple. This is what accomplished feels like. ☺