New Moon In Sagittarius

New Moon In Sagittarius

The mysterious tug of New Moon in Sagittarius is caught in the thrall of Saturn and the energetic force of Mercury Retrograde is tugging at it's heels. I've felt this particularly as Saturn moves from my sun sign into my moon sign. I have had so many things happen in the last week that my head is spinning. I can only find solace in my yoga practice, meditation, the strength the red jasper and black tourmaline have lent me and in the company of a kind soul whose support I cannot repay. I am going to work on my intentions for this new moon which allows me to acknowledge the possibility of change, the sadness of endings and of new beginnings. I'm going to journal in my blog some of my hopes and dreams, and some of the wondrous things I'd like to manifest for myself.

1. I would like to have this blog grow into one that can help thousands of people.
2. I would like be become a published sci fi and fantasy author whose writings touch the masses.
3. I would like to become a world renown singer/songwriter and performing musician in my own right who creates art and beauty through music.
4. I would like to use crystal healing and energy work to help people all over the world
5. I would like to find the security of my dream home from which to work and life from
6. I would like to ethically embrace a lifestyle of loving and relationships free from the social mores that society would place on how a person can love another.
7. I would like to travel the world and see all the places I've dreamed of
8. I would like to become an accomplished yogi
9. I would like to become proficient in various types of dancing.
10. I would like to become an accomplished pianist and compose beautiful music that moves hearts and souls.

Just that. That's all. I'm sharing a part of my hopes, dreams and aspirations with you, and in doing so, some of my vulnerability. I wish to leave behind all people, places, things, and attitudes that no longer serve my soul's purpose so that I can step into endless love, bliss and abundance. Just that. And to everyone reading this. May all your wishes and dreams come true!

Healing My Root Chakra And. Day 4

Healing My Root Chakra And Day 4 of Yoga

It's day four of my yoga practice and I am remembering why I am wearing the crystals above. Red jasper is for strength and courage, black tourmaline is for transmuting negativity, and clear quartz is for clarity. I realized that today I needed all three. I have been under an extreme amount of stressors, my metal is being tested these past few days. I'm leaning on my yoga and crystals for support. They are helping and they are needed.

Day 3: Yoga Through Emotional Pain

Day 3: Yoga Through Emotional Pain

I'm on my way through my second month of yoga and I'm going through a lot of emotions right now. The yoga, Saturn and Mercury Retrograde are stirring up some very intense feelings within me. I am trying to breathe through them and let them go. The sunny high of my birthday and the hustle and bustle of the end of my semester are coming to an end and I am being forced to process the hurts and the grief. This sucks, but I know that I have to go through it in order to release it. It's times like these that I remember the fact that I can either focus on the lack and the pain, or I can choose to place my attention on the joy and the bliss that does exist in my world and on all the things I am grateful for. Namaste.

Day 2 Of My Second Yoga Challenge!

Day 2 Of My Second Yoga Challenge!

My practice today was invigorating and challenging and set me up to deal with a day where my energy level was low from the triumphs and low points of my week. My birthday week was a roller coaster of emotions. One day I went through the break up of a relationship, the next day I received accolades for my singing at the City College of San Francisco's Winter Jazz Concert from famous jazz pianist Larry Vuchovich, and from my jazz professor and peers as well as the audience. And the next day I found out that a close friend of mine who I had lost touch with for a bit had passed away over a month ago. I was plunged into grief again. This is the second close friend I have lost this year, not including my beloved pet of 9 years. I was able to gain a modicum of comfort from the fact that he passed away peacefully after a long battle with illness. Needless to say that to go to my last round of classes and just show up today, took a lot out of me. I am coping though, by trying to be compassionate with myself and letting in the people who care about me, and allowing them to well... care for me. Saturn is going out of my sign of Sagittarius on December 20th, and the stern and sometimes harsh energy of the planet is blowing a gale-force wind into my life. And boy is it going out with a bang. Up's and downs, crescendos and decrescendos, akin to ending of Tchaikovsky's "1812 Overture" are building with steady intensity. I really am leaning heavily on my practice and on meditation to help carry me through. I know that "this to shall pass."

31 Days Of Yoga!

31 Days Of Yoga!

OK. So it's 30 Days of Yoga on the Yoga With Adriene YouTube channel. But Hey. I'm a glutton for bliss. I'm gonna keep going! This makes it day 31 for me. Trying my hand and 60 days of yoga. I'm going to see if I can make it to 1 year. Of course not all my posts will be about yoga even though I might make occasional mention to how my practice is going and what day I'm on. I'm gonna diversify and talk about my crystals, where I am in my healing journey and of course talk about my life passions. I invite anyone who's reading to make comments below this post and share with me your own personal healing journey, passions, and loves -- what makes you hunger for life and what gives you unadulterated bliss!

For me it was performing last night on my birthday with Larry Vuckovich a world renown pianist who has played with jazz greats such as Elvin Jones, Dexter Gordon and Mel Torme. Yours truly got to sing one of his favorite tunes "Serenade In Blue" written by composed by Harry Warren, with lyrics written by Mack Gordon. It was a song made famous by Glenn Miller's Big Band and I got to be that singer -- the one who's hand get's kissed like a proper damsel by Vuckovich himself. It was an honor and a definite "marker" in my life as a singer and musician. I also was offered by an amazing percussionist Leonel Hernandez to have my own band of amazing musicians to sing a selection of rare arrangements of jazz standards. I performed that evening with The City College of San Francisco's Jazz Improvisational Ensemble led by my mentor and Professor David Hardiman Jr. and MC'd by David Hardiman Senior who started the jazz program at the college. It was a remarkable evening! And I know that from here on out, not matter what's in store, I have to power to choose how I want to react to any situation, "bad" or "good" news and that I have to power to make my biggest dreams a reality!

It's All Me... I Am Unique!

It's All Me... I Am Unique!

Yay! Day 30! Happy birthday to me! 🎂 I made it to the finish line... or did I? Today was a free form practice. Adriene didn't lead me through the asanas. She didn't even have a particular mantra, but let her viewers come up with their own. I chose the mantra "I Am Unique". I feel as if this year I am discovering my own truths and becoming the free-spirited individual that my soul craves to be. This doesn't mean that I don't have boundaries, but rather that I define the limits and where I draw the line in the sand. Taking back parts of myself that have been denied -- maybe for many lifetimes -- feels so incredibly liberating! I'm back and I'm here to stay. I'm finally discovering the real me. I Am Unique! Don't ever forget that you are to. And that is beautiful.

I Love... Myself!

I Love... Myself!


A few years ago, I read an amazing book by Kamal Ravikant called "Love Yourself Like Your Life Depends On It". I remembered this succinct advice today as I was delivered some news today that really saddened me. I sat on my bed and cried, thinking that it's one day to my birthday, and this so sucks! That's when my surviving cat Fjord (I lost one of my cat's in September) looked up at me with such unconditional love in his little green eyes and literally crawled in my lap and put both his little paws around my neck and allowed me to hug him. He just stayed there as proof that there is so much love still in the universe. I thought about Dickens Faire, which just yesterday my friend Jay had made such an awesome birthday present to me with, and how much love I felt from the whole experience of yesterday, and I thought love is all around me. It made me think of the lyrics by 90's Brit pop stars Wet Wet Wet and their hit single "Love Is All Around". Love is there, if you just look for it, and it comes in the most unexpected ways. And then I remembered to quote the late, great Whitney Houston that "learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all." Cue the dramatic musical crescendo, because this is the honest and beautiful truth." So today, I place my focus on a mantra I modified from Ravikant's self-love meditation. 'I love myself. I'm loved. And I am loving!' I recognize my value, my worth and my place in the Universe, and I send this love to everyone in the universe, to the persons places and things I  have hurt, to those that have hurt me, and to everyone who supports me and my journey enough to love me right back!