Tis The Season...

Tis The Season...

Yuletide is upon us. My feelings are complex and a bit fuzzy at the moment. I'm just letting them be what there are and letting the day be what it is. It's time for me to relax and not think too hard at the end of a long road of craziness for me. What I'm realizing is that I don't have to have it all figured out right now. I am allowed not to have a beginning-to-end mapped out plan. I'm can just eat a tasty dinner and come home and binge watch "Stranger Things 2" or a K-Drama. I can let the evening unravel as it sees fit and there is nothing that I have to do or force to materialize or make. I can let things just evolve. That is the less I'm learning from this practice. How not to force tree pose. How to stand in the moment and just breathe.

Day 11 of My Second Month of Yoga

Day 11 of My Second Month of Yoga

Today was in many ways, somewhat of a breather. I got a chance to reconnect to the energies of my Reiki practice as well, and I am reminding myself  what it's like to give myself Reiki on a daily basis before bed. I love Divine White Light's Reiki YouTube channel. The energy that comes from her hands is amazing, beautiful and so healing. Today's yoga practice was all about that Shakti Divine Feminine energy -- the energy that I've been developing more of in my life by allowing myself to be in touch with the yin-driven vulnerable sides of myself. Allowing your heart to really feel is one of the most important steps towards healing. In today's society, much of our time is spent armoring ourselves to present a picture of "normalcy" and competence -- a sense that we are "O.K." Yoga is about honoring yourself and your emotions in the real and honest place that they are in each moment. I was able to do that with yoga and Reiki today and by relying on the strength of my spirit guides and divine angelic beings. The book of the moment for me is "The Essence of Reiki: The Definitive Guide to Usui Reiki" by Andy Chrysostomou and Dawn Mellowship.

A Third of The Way There...

A Third of The Way There...

I was able to recharge my batteries for another stab at the last day of this week and the last day of Mercury Retrograde in Sagittarius. I'm taking stock of my life, sifting through my resources to find what works and what doesn't. I'm feeling more accepting and allowing of life's changes and a lot less rigid in my Capricorn moon aspect. Hopefully we are all moving into easier times ahead. Goddess/God knows I need the break. I'm making it through this yoga challenge and that feels good. Everything I'm reading leads me to believe that 2018 is going to be a month of building and establishing foundations. I can sense that type of a future on the horizon for me. And I believe that will be a good thing. In my tarot deck, I keep pulling the Magician deck. It's telling me that I am have to power to be the creator of my own destiny. We all do! It's just for the first time, I'm really owning that fact and putting it into action. It's time for me to wave that wand, imagine a brighter, newer and better future beyond the storms clouds that hover today, and soar up high, scuttling over them towards the sunshine, rainbows and unicorns!

How Did The Universe Know?

How Did The Universe Know?

That I was going to need a yoga practice that would test my endurance just as much as the day did. Yuletidings! Today is Winter Solstice -- officially the shortest day and the longest night if the year. Saturn has arrived in Capricorn, my stoic moon sign and the sun is in Capricorn. "Yowsza!" To quote Inspector Gadget. Yes. I am unapologetically a child of the 80's, and I'm feeling like that meaningless exclamation that means everything.

I have had three finals in the span of 24 hours, and It's only a a few minutes before 8:45pm. How is that even possible? Saturn is in my moon 🌙 sign. That's how. I haven't even gotten to the part where I am attending the funeral of a close friend of mine tomorrow afternoon. I found out about his passing the day after my birthday. Surprise! Right. And there's more but that will have to wait until after Mercury Retrograde, so I can get my communication channels clear enough to express myself properly. That was today. Both my time on the mat and my day kicked my butt. I'm feeling like I need a long hug and some yummy comfort food to eat. Luckily Sagittarius is in Venus, and the beautiful energy radiating through my sign that is her domain, providing that for me. The Universe is having mercy on my soul and  I'm feeling the gratitude at the prospect of this well-deserved respite.

Day 8 Of 30

Day 8 Of 30

This week, much like the last, has been a bit of an emotional marathon. Mercury Retrograde has me feeling as if I am plodding through sand. I was incredibly exhausted. This evening my final was co-coordinating the Forum Magazine's launch party. Forum Magazine has been City College of San Francisco's literary magazine for over eight decades now.

I had envisioned the evening as a send up to the beat poetry era whose influence still reverberates through the San Francisco community. I had asked a few members of the CCSF Jazz Musician's club to accompany the poets. The event got off to a slow start but turned out to be a success. I had invited a talented poet I know to read his work. He lived closer to where I do in the East Bay Area and offered me a ride home,  only to find out his car had been towed. Of course I felt terrible because I was the one who had invited him. It also stung that at the end of a big accomplishment, my silver lining was a bit tarnished. 

This week has been full of these sort of happenings, and I am having to ask myself what the lesson is for me in all of this? I'm trying open a space for breathe and calm and awareness and for allowing. My yoga practice today was very yin, and I guess my spirit needed that rest and nurture for the evening to come. Ah well. Tomorrow is another day. 

I Pulled The Strength Card...

I Pulled The Strength Card...
Saturn moved out of my sun sign and into my moon sign. And today I just discovered some more bad news. This time it is firmly rooted in my emotional house. Because I don't want to expose too much information at the moment until I have more myself, I'm going to suffice by saying that I'm trying to hang in there. I'm going to need a lot of strength to deal with this issue. I can only keep positive and reach out to the universe and family and friends for the support I need.

Day 6 of My Second Yoga Challenge

Day 6 of My Second Yoga Challenge

Ok. So today's practice was as challenging as my day. Awkward conversations? Check! Mercury Retro time conundrums a la 'how did I start out having two full hours and now I'm still late?' Check! Unexpected confrontations with difficult people? Check! On the bright side there were mind-blowing, loving connections, unexpected moments of humor, understanding, camaraderie and friendship, and an amazing cup of coffee with a popcorn chicken and rice bowl from Quickly's. I feel like I still came out on top somehow dispute or maybe in spite of the challenges off the mat. And I can't help feeling such gratitude for all it. I'm growing so much from everything that I am going through right now. Somehow all these moments in the struggle and the flow feel precious and priceless... and beautiful.