So It's day 28 or if you count my whole daily yoga journey thus far it's day 58! I approached todays practice feeling very moody because I knew that there was an issue simmering on the emotional back burner for me. This playful practice was just what I needed to turn ideas around in my mind, on their head, upside down and consider the issue. To make a very long story short, I have had a business with a dear friend and mentor of mine that due to my financial state, I haven't not been able to pay on. The situation has filled me with a lot of grief, shame and anxiety. This practice as well as the advice in Gail Thackray's "30 Days To Prosperity" have let me know that I can either cry 'poor me' or I can address the situation the best that I can where I am in this place in my life and do so with a spirit of gratitude and joy for the lessons I am about to learn (though they may not be pleasant). I can focus on the abundance that is showing up in my life right at this moment and trust the Universe and Divinity to handle all the things that are out of my control.
Today's "Crystal Oracle" card "Turquoise", with insights by Toni Carmine Salerno is letting me know that the only solution is loving and clear communication. That means healing some of my throat chakra blockages by speaking up. I don't want to let old habits of bottling up what I'm feeling to hold me hostage emotionally. The energies of turquoise are gentle and yet powerful, firm and yet loving. All the things I need to be right now. I choose to meditate on the healing energies that embody the turquoise blue ray, and call upon Archangel Gabriel to help guide me through my fears and communication challenges.
Today I feel very hopeful. Hope is an infectious feeling that spreads into every goal you set about to accomplish -- every part of your day! It gives you a sense of adventure and fun with which to move about in the world. Today in Tori Hartman's book "Chakra Wisdom Oracle Toolkit: A 52-Week Journey of Self-Discovery With The Lost Fables", I read about the fable of Geranium. Geranium is a plant who was uprooted from her container and then transplanted into a new environment. That is exactly what happened to me when Saturn went into Sagittarius. My long-term partner of many years left me, and I was forced to move from San Francisco where I had made my home for over four years and move to Richmond, California in the East Bay Area. When we examine the fable of Geranium, we are told to look at the ways in which we are transforming in our new state of being and to look at which phase we are in the process. Are we chilling in our pots? Have we been uprooted? Or are we stretching out our roots in new ground? Perhaps somewhere in-between? I feel as if I'm in-between having been uprooted and settling into new ground. I'm finding my way and putting out my feelers so that I can ground myself in my roots and start a new beginning. Now I'm under-going a period of great change and growth. It's exciting!
Today the card I drew from the "Crystal Oracle" deck by Toni Carmine Salero, is a repeat. The energies of green selenite are once again giving me to "greenlight" (LOL) to start dreaming and visualizing all the things I want in my life. My dream life is right here and right now!
Dream On Dreamer
The Brand New Heavies
Dream on dreamer life gets in your way Dream on dreamer life gets in your way
There you go day and night Up in the clouds flying so high You try your best to stretch your mind Beyond reality and sense and rhyme You see things make your big heart sing Like the flowers trees and birds and pretty things Hate to put your two feet on the ground You like to step aside Then you release yourself and fly
Dream on dreamer life gets in your way If the life you live is a spinning top of pain then you can Dream on dreamer life gets in your way If ya live to learn you'll be lucky one day
Now the paisly pages of your mind Are so complete like seeing colours black and white Do you realize that you look so spaced out You've made your peace with the need to be free Without a doubt Yeah I frown 'cause something don't look right It's the twinkly twinkle star thats in your eyes Hate to put your two feet on the ground So go on and step aside And release yourself and fly
Written by Dallas L. Austin and N'Dea R. Davenport.
Yes. I am feeling like if I stretch my vision far enough, then I can create anything that I wish to achieve! That's how I'm feeling after my yoga practice. Before I started, when I was journaling, I felt hesitant about the blessings that are coming my way -- not sure how to grab onto them. Now I realize that I don't have to grab anything. I can just let the abundance and bounties flow right to me "easily and effortlessly" to quote "30 Days To Prosperity". "Easily and effortlessly" is my motto today. What can I experience if I remember to love my entire being and just well... be?
In today's "Ritual For Transformation", I did a meditation where I reflected on every part of my body inside and out, hands, legs, nose, feet, eyes, butt, arms, heart, lungs, body systems, and energy body anatomy (aura etc.) and told it that I loved it. It was incredibly freeing. It's powerful when you own that fact that you can be responsible for giving yourself the love that you need and not feel the need to have approval or love from outside of yourself. I am learning to love myself that way and it's a beautiful thing. I left my meditation refreshed and feeling beautiful both inside and out. I am grateful.
Today's Crystal Card is Molybdenite, which give us a "message from the stars." I reminds us that all of the choices that we have made thus far in life, "good" and "bad" are valid and have led us to where we are right now. If we trust that this is the exact place we need to be and that this too is part of our "Divine Life Plan", to quote "30 Days To Prosperity", then we can never go wrong no matter how terrible things seem. I am reminded that the choices I have made and am making are all for my highest good. I can release my inner critic and let the story of life be amazing and full of twist and turns like all the best novels are! I am writing the pages and as a writer, what would my life be without the painful past, loves lost, drama, betrayal and hurts as well as the romance, love, joy, hope, peace, gorgeous moments and abundance? Boring. I am living a full and well-rounded life and I am thankful for every moment of it!
In today's dancing warrior yoga practice, I explored the space of simply allowing for what is.
In my "Rituals For Transformation" diary, today I committed to the affirmation "I forgive my body". I discovered that I have held grudges against my body for all the times it didn't look or perform the way I wanted it to. I forgave my heart for all the times I've experienced emotional pain or hurt, heartbreak or grief. I forgave my low back and my left foot for giving me chronic pains from old injuries that are healing. I forgave the parts of my body that are aging. I forgave. And in that space I found hope and an willingness to make room for all the imperfections that a strict childhood and disapproving religion wouldn't allow. It was ok for me to f**k up and not have it all together. Now my heart has released a lot of things it doesn't need any longer to let it bright new joys and experiences.
Now for the tarot cards of the day. "The Crystal Oracle" by Tone Carmine Salerno.
1. Rose Quartz: Unconditional love, peace, joy, loving thoughts.
A stone I've worked with intensely for the past three years, has a message for me. And that is that love is all around me. The beautiful compassionate energy of rose quartz welcomes me with it's soft pink glow. Deep heart healing is available to me now. The following prayer is excerpted from the deck's accompanying booklet.
"We pray for love to heal and guide us
to illuminate our hearts and minds
so that we may all come to see and fell
the sacred flame of light we each hold within,
for then we shall truly know,
beyond all doubt, that only love is real -
only love is eternal."
This card is telling me that all I have to do is visualize the life that I would like to have and it will crystalize for me out of the ether of my imagination as my actions towards those dreams bring it to fruition. If I see it in my mind's eye, and I truly wish it to be so, I can manifest that life into reality. But that I shouldn't get so caught up in pursuing the goal that I forget to enjoy the process.
"Life is a journey, not a destination."
3. Selenite Green: Healing, tranquil pleasures, day dreams, imaginings
"Life is a river of dreams. Simply relax and enjoy the journey" Amazing right?! This is another card to back up clear quartz. It's reminding to me get clear with my dreams. Believe in everything that I am dreaming up now, because it will soon be a reality. Just like Walt Disney says, (yes I'm a Sagittarius) "A dream is wish your heart makes."
Today's yoga practice was a gentle yummy yin energy sequence that I needed to just be with my body for a while and go deeper into the thoughts and sensations that arise. I find that I am able to bring a calmer energy to my body and mind and go deeper into my journaling and reflections. I feel as if I can bring these positively rejuvenating vibrations to my new school year and to all my endeavors thus far.
Today's tarot card pulled from Sandra Anne Taylor's deck is "Door To Romance". I have to admit to being both excited and intrigued by this card. January is a lucky in love month for all three of my signs aspects; sun in Sagittarius🌞, moon in Capricorn 🌙 and Gemini 💎 Ascendant 🌠. This card is letting me know that not only am I healing my heart chakra and opening it to expressing and receiving unconditional love to and from others, but that I am learning to give myself an abundance of unconditional love as well.
*Posting this late after a fun night out. LOL. Getting back at a totally unrespectable hour. *
Today as I was going through the exercise in day four of "30 Days To Prosperity" by Gail Thackray, I was reading about how every being in the universe has a 'Divine Life Plan". The idea is that each of us came to this lifetime with a purpose - a way we wanted to experience our lives. I though about it. Say the Universe, Spirit, God, Goddess, Higher Self or whatever you want to label it teamed up with you and together you mapped out how you wanted to live you live in this reality. The more I thought about it. The more I thought that this boils down to the your soul and a Higher Power creating a dream life for you. Essentially this is the life of your dreams and you just have to follow your heart until you are on a path where you can start experiencing it. Then I thought, what if the getting to the goal didn't have to be a chore until we reached our "dream". What if finding that path could be fun. What if I chose to be present in each moment and approach it with the innocence, exploration and exuberance of a child. Remember when you were a child and your brothers and sisters turned washing the dishes into a game. Suddenly, it wasn't a chore. I'm going to examine the ways where I can make all the responsibilities I have to do each day into a source of joy and abandon -- knowing that in accomplishing them, I'm getting closer to achieving the items on my passion list!
"Energy Oracle Cards" by Sandra Anne Taylor
1. Walking Away:
This is a card I've been pulling a lot lately. In this placement, it means that I'm letting go of the things that no longer serve me - feelings of shame, anger guilt, rage, pain and fear using Reiki, Emotional Freedom Technique (EFT), aromatherapy, crystal healing, affirmations and all the tools in my healing toolbox to help me do that. I am committed to letting go any habits such as procrastination, eating poorly, and not getting proper rest.
2. Angel Of Love:
Unconditional love and compassionate heart-based living is available to me at this time. I have the courage to feel what needs to be felt and to accept all that is with a spirit of love and hope. This will bring my heart peace. It's been a long journey towards healing, and now I can release into the power of Divine love that is always there to light my way.
3. Community:
This card just keeps popping up. It's letting me know that I have the support around me to do all that I envision and wish to achieve. Friends, created family and the spirit world is rallying around me now and wishing me well in all of my endeavors.
Basia
A New Day For You
Hello again it's me
Your shoulder's where I sit
The half, nobody sees, of a silent partnership
I am here your help at hand
I'm never far away
A clear view from where I stand
I'll be there if you need me
I am your helping hand
My words you've heard them all before
It's only for the sake of love
It's gonna be a new day for you
A new day for you
The stars have played their part
The past is gone and done
Have more faith in love
The best is yet to come
So what is this I here
You deserve a break
Take time to think it out
Don't make a new mistake
I am here your help at hand
It's gonna be a new day for you
A new day for you, new day for you, new day for you
The stars have played their part
The past is gone and done
Have more faith in love
The best is yet to come
My words you've heard them all before
It's only for the sake of love
The stars have played their part
The past is gone and done
Have more faith in love
The best is
It's gonna be a new day for you
A new day for you, new day for you, new day for you
It's gonna be a new day for you
A new day for you, new day for you, new day for you
Hello again it's me
So today's "Full Body Awareness" practice is just what. I need. I'm feeling a general sense of confusion as to where to go next in my life and I need to get clear! I pulled three cards from Sandra Anne Taylor's "Energy Oracle Cards" deck, and here's what I got.
Oh Whoa Nelly! Reversed Cards! O.K. Now two of these cards were just in upright manifestations of their energy. What gives? Once I got over that revelation, I looked deeper and realized that these cards represent challenges that I still have to face in these areas.
1. First Chakra Archangel Michael (Reversed):
I need to face issues about stability and grounding that are sill up for review and healing within my root chakra. This makes sense because one of my journaling exercises in the "Chakra Wisdom Oracle Toolkit" by Tori Hartman, was about examining sayings that I live by and involved me writing down all of the values I was raised with. I was raised in a cult religion as a Jehovah's Witness with a rigid, narrow belief system that I set aside nearly 15 years ago. But it left me with a lot of traumas from my childhood that I am still addressing. I'm getting the message to let Archangel Michael help me heal those wounds.
2. Adjacent Possibilities (Reversed):
It's time for me to examine all my options and let go of the shame, worry, anxiety, self-doubt and deeply rooted habits that are no longer serving me. I am in the process of doing that, but this card is reminding me to re-double my efforts and dig the ones that still remain lodged far in my subconscious for cleansing and renewal. It's telling me to consistently make choices in my life that go in line with my new life intentions.
3. Archangel Metatron (Reversed):
This is a message from Metatron, who I've called on this week. He's asking me to let him help me get clear, and to wipe away the energies of confusion from my life. Coincidently, this is one of the intentions I set for the New Year, to release confusion and clouded thinking and to break out of all that isn't serving me. Again this card is admonishing me to release anything toxic such as bad habits and thought processes from my life. Reversed cards are not only a good thing, they're a great thing. They let you know where the problem areas are in your life so that you can go about fixing or at least greatly improving things so that your life can run smoother and more happily adjusted. I'm ready!
