I Am Worthy: OMG Day 20!

I Am Worthy...

This practice wasn't for slouches when it came to exploring the subconscious mind and all the messages we tell ourselves about our worth every day. Tell yourself "I am worthy" and see what emotions, feelings, pictures or images come up. This is such an intense part of self-discovery because often times we aren't just dealing from that time that our ex-boyfriend told us that we were not desirable or a friend stopped speaking to us over hurt feelings. These feelings come from deep within our inner child, from our ancestral lineage or even from past lives (if that is one of your belief systems like it is mine).  Maybe your mother or father didn't value you much, abandoned you, or your needs weren't paid very much attention to as a child.

All of these things can knock you of center and damage the root chakra. This yoga practice pulled up not only mine own thoughts of unworthiness, but also all the ways in which I may have made other feel unworthy. It also pulled up a healthy amount of guilt which goes into sacral chakra healing. But as we've already discussed, the first 5 chakras are very linked. That is not to say that the 6th and 7th chakras aren't. We are all connected holistically to every part of our being, body, mind, and spirit. But the first 5 chakra's seem to interconnect quite a bit more in my opinion. Whatever the case, you can use this practice and other yoga practices along with affirmations to go deeper. It's a powerful thing. And this going deeper can lead to healing.

The good news is that with some effort you can heal and repair the root chakra. There are many ways to do that from meditation, to crystal therapy, to visualization and affirmations, yoga, dance, grounding exercises, visiting nature and connecting with the dirt under your feet. And it can be a lot of fun! In these activities you learn to fall, get back up, laugh, play and cry and then fall and laugh and pull yourself back to your feet again and again. You learn to approach life with acceptance and forgiveness. I am learning to forgive myself and others, be tolerant of even the people who annoy me and learn lessons from why they are or were in my existence and to stay open to all the experiences, heart breaking, wonderful, loving and amazing that come my way! 

I Respect!

I Respect!

Today's mantra challenged my ideas about respect. I was able to reflect on the ways in which I respect myself and others and what ideas that I hold true for myself about my boundaries and areas where I might transgress on the boundaries of others. It was illuminating. I have been wearing my red jasper and black tourmaline crystals to ground me and help me to understand even more about my personal space and where those ley lines reside. I have been doing a lot of musing around my first chakra whose mantra is "I Am". I focused on all the ways that I am respectful both of myself and others and how respect relates to the confines of the personal space.

We wear stones for grounding, but these stones also serve as a barrier to the energetic borders of our personal space. When we wear a black tourmaline it is also for protection from negative energy, entities,  thought forms and the like. These all relate to how much we own our bodies and how comfortable we are inside them. Can we sense when our space is being violated, or when we are violating other's space? Part of these lessons of course continue up the chakras, especially the first five chakras like an energetic daisy chain.

When we ground into our own self, our boundaries, our truths and our intuition, we become even more powerful and whole beings capable of making great changes in the world. And part of that realization of self, includes our respect for ourselves, others and all the things that make up the universe.

I Surrender...

I Surrender...

Today wasn't perfect, and that's actually great. In my quest to explore the boundaries of my body, I wanted to approach my practice today with a sense of abandon, and just simply let go. I've been focusing in on my root chakra and reflecting on what Mercury Retrograde might mean for me as it dials back it's trajectory on December 3rd. I wore two grounding crystals, red jasper and black tourmaline to assist in healing my root chakra. I thought about what Ken Dychtwald was saying about some my body imbalances in my root chakra that cause me to grasp for control on hold on too tightly out of fear and my past trend of rationalizing them and my current mode of acceptance. I knew that today would shake up this stuff in some way. I felt it.

I realized that I might not make all my deadlines when I was on the BART today, I got to class and made peace with that. I left my backpack inside the my office at The Guardsman, the City College of San Francisco Newspaper where I've spent the last year as a reporter and now a culture editor. That backpack had some stuff I needed in there, including my "Energy Oracle" tarot deck and my copy of "Bodymind". On the way to my jazz improvisation class where I sing, I bumped into a women who should have pushed all my triggers. She asked me if I wanted to go to a bible study. I told her I was more spiritual than religious, and what could have turned confrontational, actually helped me realized just how far I have moved beyond my bitterness of having been raised in a cult religion and my migration to a place of acceptance. More root chakra issues. I plan on exploring my inner child and facing more root chakra places where I am stuck. All in all, I'd say that today went pretty well. I plan to practice meditation and tap deeper into my root chakra. There is more gold to be mined there. No doubt Mercury will further help me to uncover any other unfinished business inside my root chakra. I am making it a point to consider all the ways in which I can unpack and let go of all the stuff, psychic debris, attachments, persons, energies, places and things that no longer serve me. I am ready to completely unveil a new me on the inside and the outside! It's time for an ultimate cleansing of mind, body and soul.

I Am Focused

I Am Focused!

Today I had so many tasks to complete, that this yoga practice was a god send. I am eternally grateful to all the practices that the Yoga With Adriene channel posts on their You Tube. They have been a source of immense benefit to both me and my massage therapy clients. I am learning to accept the challenges that my body and mind is giving me. I am tending to my first chakra because my circumstances are asking me to address my basic needs for survival at this time. As always my practice "has my back" to quote Adriene. And also so do my many spirit guides and angels. This statement may not connect with you, but take whatever works for you and let go of the rest. While I truly believe that there are beings in the spirit world that serve as helpers for humanity, that's not what gets everyone through their lives when things seem like they are weaving complicated webs. And that's OK. Yoga today has helped me to be mindful and to notice areas where I am gripping on all it's worth and not living in the natural flow of things with ease. Ken Dychtwald's "Bodymind" book is doing the same. I've been reading it voraciously all week. It's time for me to accept the changes that are flowing into my existence and live to my fullest potential!

I Enjoy!

I Enjoy!

I didn't enjoy today when I first woke up. But this little gem of a practice was powerful motivation for me to do just that. I realized later in the day that I did a significant amount of releasing of emotions. I was led by the universe to pick up a book that I've often revisited over the years called "Bodymind" by Ken Dychtwald. Every time I read this book, I discover something new. I realized that I was onto something earlier this year when I decided to devote two weeks to each chakra. According to the book focusing on one chakra at a time seems to be a way to support the energy body from the ground up -- literally. Only this time instead of only devoting two weeks, I'm going to devote at least two months instead and then at the end of that time, explore whether or not I feel as if I've done enough journeying there. I feel like deep healing is needed energetically in my financial and stability center. It's time to get rooted and grounded. This 30 day practice is only the beginning! I feel the change coming on, and I welcome it with open arms.

I Am Open!

I Am Open!

Halfway there! I'm almost there. I am staying open to whatever the universe has to offer me. I am open to change and open to letting go of the things I no longer need. I have learned a lot of hard lessons over the last 2 years and I see that Saturn is still teaching me. Mercury is around the corner and somehow this feels different. It feels like a lot of more impactful things could happen to me before this year is out, good and bad. I'd be lying if I said that I didn't feel a sense of trepidation. But I'm trying to be open to that too -- to embrace uncomfortable feelings and deal with them. It's tough allowing myself to be this vulnerable. It's raw and it's grating, and necessary and truth.

Going With The Flow

Going With The Flow

Today It was all about going with the flow. I woke up very sleepy and I just couldn't get going with any sort of real drive. I took my puppy outside to go potty and it was raining. I realized that I was kind of in a funky mood. And  you know what, that's ok. It's where I was and I just had to go deep into the breath of my yoga practice to assimilate those emotions and process how I was feeling and expressing them. to quote John Lennon, I just had to "let it be." I listened to two guided meditations, one a 10 minute meditation by "The Honest Guy's" YouTube channel, and one that was a chakra meditation that brought me back to myself. Mercury Retrograde is also just around the corner on December 3rd, and I'm dealing with being in it's shadow. Something tells me that I'm going to have to hold on tight this Mercury. But I'll be just fine, as long as I don't fight the waves of unrest, but surf them, continue to let go of what no longer serves me, and  finish, unfinished business. I'll follow the signs of the universe and navigate the uncharted waters with ease and grace. I'll step into the shadow with bravery and face the parts of myself that I find difficult. I'll end my time in Saturn with a show of strength, giving it all I've got, and come out on top!